you are my heart my soul
my everything
my best friend my lover
you are my to lean on
it's been a long road
yet in the blink of an eye
so many years have passed
like we have both awakened from dreams
exciting adventures lay ahead of u
let go along and enjoy the ride!
explore, create, learn & challenge
yourself!
venture to those paths
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Monday, October 25, 2010
getting it done!
Today was my day off, the only day off I get during the week. Anyways there have been much needed changes that have been in the works here at home. I am slowly tackling things.
I tend to have that all or nothing mentality that makes me even more stressed that I am not getting the things done that I want/need to get done! I get so stressed I want to pull away from my world and that then leads to not so good habits and yucky mood swings.
I used to turn to food and be in darker moods. The I stopped using food and started abusing my joy in reading. Oh well what can I do right!?
Well I am a work in progress just as the things with in my home. I am working on each task as it comes along. Going with the flow and when I feel the pull I go to it and work it out.
Feels great to not push away and to now turn to it and see what I have snagged.
It's all related to the self care I been working at. Stress is caused by so much in out lives. Is it really worth that mental fight? Hm lets see go all crazy cause this hasn't gotten done for one day? I set with no major chore for the day.
Having the kids around kind of hard to get certain things done and if I try and don't have an idea as to how I plan to tackle things then I get even more stressed.
Having a loos game plan for each "project" not a goal but thinking OK how can things work more smoothly in our home? Every day you find yourself holding back a string of swears because something is not flowing right.
Urg the kids and their shoes! They keep on just leaving them all over the floor near the front door and we are always tripping on them! We do have a shoe rack but with 5 ppl living in this house and each person having atleast 2 pairs of shoes ya you can imagine right? The shoe rack is only so big & not to mention the 2 other kids that we watch during the week add another couple pairs of shoes!
I still haven't gotten it to how I really would like to have it set up but I pretty much fixed the issue for the time being. I have a couple of empty diaper boxes that work just right for when the kids come in and want just plop their shoes down well they can plop them in the box!
My idea is to come up with a nicer looking arrangement but the money for that is not there at the moment. We are a family that lives in our home and that is that for now. Who knows maybe once I an done re organising the other rooms I may just find a nice bin or something that will look better than the Luvs boxes we got going on there. Oh well!
What others think is not important! Not that anyone has commented on all this but from the twisted thinking I had going on it was all me! I got a lot of that going on that I am working on.
Changing the way I think, cause that is not the only issue that I have around te house where I "think" to hard about it and what ppl must think.
Nope it's now about what flows best for our family.
I am still not used to me being back to work after 5 years of being a stay at home mom it'a hard thing to work out and I am constantly reminding myself of all this! Give myself a break get that pressure off and things will work themselves out as they come.
Not sure you can imagine what a relief it has been that just recently that my shoulders are feeling a bit lighter and that I no longer feel like the walls are gonna cave in.
I tend to have that all or nothing mentality that makes me even more stressed that I am not getting the things done that I want/need to get done! I get so stressed I want to pull away from my world and that then leads to not so good habits and yucky mood swings.
I used to turn to food and be in darker moods. The I stopped using food and started abusing my joy in reading. Oh well what can I do right!?
Well I am a work in progress just as the things with in my home. I am working on each task as it comes along. Going with the flow and when I feel the pull I go to it and work it out.
Feels great to not push away and to now turn to it and see what I have snagged.
It's all related to the self care I been working at. Stress is caused by so much in out lives. Is it really worth that mental fight? Hm lets see go all crazy cause this hasn't gotten done for one day? I set with no major chore for the day.
Having the kids around kind of hard to get certain things done and if I try and don't have an idea as to how I plan to tackle things then I get even more stressed.
Having a loos game plan for each "project" not a goal but thinking OK how can things work more smoothly in our home? Every day you find yourself holding back a string of swears because something is not flowing right.
Urg the kids and their shoes! They keep on just leaving them all over the floor near the front door and we are always tripping on them! We do have a shoe rack but with 5 ppl living in this house and each person having atleast 2 pairs of shoes ya you can imagine right? The shoe rack is only so big & not to mention the 2 other kids that we watch during the week add another couple pairs of shoes!
I still haven't gotten it to how I really would like to have it set up but I pretty much fixed the issue for the time being. I have a couple of empty diaper boxes that work just right for when the kids come in and want just plop their shoes down well they can plop them in the box!
My idea is to come up with a nicer looking arrangement but the money for that is not there at the moment. We are a family that lives in our home and that is that for now. Who knows maybe once I an done re organising the other rooms I may just find a nice bin or something that will look better than the Luvs boxes we got going on there. Oh well!
What others think is not important! Not that anyone has commented on all this but from the twisted thinking I had going on it was all me! I got a lot of that going on that I am working on.
Changing the way I think, cause that is not the only issue that I have around te house where I "think" to hard about it and what ppl must think.
Nope it's now about what flows best for our family.
I am still not used to me being back to work after 5 years of being a stay at home mom it'a hard thing to work out and I am constantly reminding myself of all this! Give myself a break get that pressure off and things will work themselves out as they come.
Not sure you can imagine what a relief it has been that just recently that my shoulders are feeling a bit lighter and that I no longer feel like the walls are gonna cave in.
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Sparks!
The look he gave me sent chills down my soul
the way it used to
when young love was being born and sparks flew
the way he held me the way he saw through me
Being lost and not seeing that look
I never realised it was missing
bitter sweet is how it feels
Realizing I lost it
but I got it back!
Tho this time it's so much stronger
the feeling has a different effect
I want to explore and I want to learn
I want to take new adventures with him
Knowing this is the greatest feeling
Feeling seeing and believing
trusting giving receiving and
Dancing!
Just glowing and being happy!
the way it used to
when young love was being born and sparks flew
the way he held me the way he saw through me
Being lost and not seeing that look
I never realised it was missing
bitter sweet is how it feels
Realizing I lost it
but I got it back!
Tho this time it's so much stronger
the feeling has a different effect
I want to explore and I want to learn
I want to take new adventures with him
Knowing this is the greatest feeling
Feeling seeing and believing
trusting giving receiving and
Dancing!
Just glowing and being happy!
Friday, October 22, 2010
sept 24,2010
When I close my eyes
I feel these arms reaching out
as if there was an octopus fastened to my head
reaching out in all directions
feeling it's way for something
a distraction
the world that is just so unclear
who wants to be conscious for it all
letting it reach out and feel for me
distractions only last so long
after all each leg connects to the center
where all the feelings are being felt
I feel these arms reaching out
as if there was an octopus fastened to my head
reaching out in all directions
feeling it's way for something
a distraction
the world that is just so unclear
who wants to be conscious for it all
letting it reach out and feel for me
distractions only last so long
after all each leg connects to the center
where all the feelings are being felt
Sept 23,2010
Jamie,
What I have to say to you today is that you hold the key to my happiness. You are the keeper of all of me my spiritual being.
You tend to my physical body and mental self.
You take on adventures each day.
I may not always be conscious of you or understand all of you and how we function so completely together and separate.
Our creator our God is an amazing being that has created such wondrous body that we live in together.
Here I am saying today. I am out to connect and live with you more as one and not divided. I no longer want others peoples perspectives of me or their judgments effect who I am within you.
I want to honor you as best I can and let you show me exactly what life is all about. It is way passed time to let you use that control. I don't know how or why but some where along the line my old twisted thinking led me toward giving that control to others.
Time to be happy Jamie turn that key and live!
What I have to say to you today is that you hold the key to my happiness. You are the keeper of all of me my spiritual being.
You tend to my physical body and mental self.
You take on adventures each day.
I may not always be conscious of you or understand all of you and how we function so completely together and separate.
Our creator our God is an amazing being that has created such wondrous body that we live in together.
Here I am saying today. I am out to connect and live with you more as one and not divided. I no longer want others peoples perspectives of me or their judgments effect who I am within you.
I want to honor you as best I can and let you show me exactly what life is all about. It is way passed time to let you use that control. I don't know how or why but some where along the line my old twisted thinking led me toward giving that control to others.
Time to be happy Jamie turn that key and live!
july 17,2010
out of focus and the frame to big
it hangs on the wall all crooked
and yes it's even cracked!
hold me
touch me
taste my skin
give me something to feel
love me
help me
show me life
I want you to hold me
and get lost in life
make me forget everything
only hear your heart beat
your gentle kiss
tender touch
let me get lost in you my love
you are life
warmth and safe
hold me
love me
complete me
it hangs on the wall all crooked
and yes it's even cracked!
hold me
touch me
taste my skin
give me something to feel
love me
help me
show me life
I want you to hold me
and get lost in life
make me forget everything
only hear your heart beat
your gentle kiss
tender touch
let me get lost in you my love
you are life
warmth and safe
hold me
love me
complete me
july 15,2010
the man with the hat
has so much energy
it just surrounds him
all blue and gold
oh the magic
the mystery
do you dare talk to the magic man
dreams are so powerful
some you don't remember
some you act on
and some you just wish were oh so true
the way the clouds
the rain and the air smell during a thunder storm
the amazing energy you feel
so full of something it makes your senses work on over time
the beauty of the lightning strike
the deep thundering boom that fallows
the way the sky lights up creating monsters of out of the clouds
oh man i just love a good thunderstorm
i want to embrace so much in life
some times i just don't know where to grab first
it's like binging a thunder storm
you hear it rumbling in
you feel the air pressure change
and wonder will it rain before it gets here?
big old fat rain? or just a trickling mist
the way the rain drops dance along the water
creating music as it drops and spreads into a pool of water
you ever go under water and just list to how the rain sounds
it's a sound not often heard so take it in and hold it close
just as you would soaks up the beautiful sun shine
nothing better than connecting with mother earth!
has so much energy
it just surrounds him
all blue and gold
oh the magic
the mystery
do you dare talk to the magic man
dreams are so powerful
some you don't remember
some you act on
and some you just wish were oh so true
the way the clouds
the rain and the air smell during a thunder storm
the amazing energy you feel
so full of something it makes your senses work on over time
the beauty of the lightning strike
the deep thundering boom that fallows
the way the sky lights up creating monsters of out of the clouds
oh man i just love a good thunderstorm
i want to embrace so much in life
some times i just don't know where to grab first
it's like binging a thunder storm
you hear it rumbling in
you feel the air pressure change
and wonder will it rain before it gets here?
big old fat rain? or just a trickling mist
the way the rain drops dance along the water
creating music as it drops and spreads into a pool of water
you ever go under water and just list to how the rain sounds
it's a sound not often heard so take it in and hold it close
just as you would soaks up the beautiful sun shine
nothing better than connecting with mother earth!
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