getting it done!

Today was my day off, the only day off I get during the week. Anyways there have been much needed changes that have been in the works here at home. I am slowly tackling things.

I tend to have that all or nothing mentality that makes me even more stressed that I am not getting the things done that I want/need to get done! I get so stressed I want to pull away from my world and that then leads to not so good habits and yucky mood swings.

I used to turn to food and be in darker moods. The I stopped using food and started abusing my joy in reading. Oh well what can I do right!?

Well I am a work in progress just as the things with in my home. I am working on each task as it comes along. Going with the flow and when I feel the pull I go to it and work it out.

Feels great to not push away and to now turn to it and see what I have snagged.

It's all related to the self care I been working at. Stress is caused by so much in out lives. Is it really worth that mental fight? Hm lets see go all crazy cause this hasn't gotten done for one day? I set with no major chore for the day.

Having the kids around kind of hard to get certain things done and if I try and don't have an idea as to how I plan to tackle things then I get even more stressed.

Having a loos game plan for each "project" not a goal but thinking OK how can things work more smoothly in our home? Every day you find yourself holding back a string of swears because something is not flowing right.

Urg the kids and their shoes! They keep on just leaving them all over the floor near the front door and we are always tripping on them! We do have a shoe rack but with 5 ppl living in this house and each person having atleast 2 pairs of shoes ya you can imagine right? The shoe rack is only so big & not to mention the 2 other kids that we watch during the week add another couple pairs of shoes!

I still haven't gotten it to how I really would like to have it set up but I pretty much fixed the issue for the time being. I have a couple of empty diaper boxes that work just right for when the kids come in and want just plop their shoes down well they can plop them in the box!

My idea is to come up with a nicer looking arrangement but the money for that is not there at the moment. We are a family that lives in our home and that is that for now. Who knows maybe once I an done re organising the other rooms I may just find a nice bin or something that will look better than the Luvs boxes we got going on there. Oh well!

What others think is not important! Not that anyone has commented on all this but from the twisted thinking I had going on it was all me! I got a lot of that going on that I am working on.

Changing the way I think, cause that is not the only issue that I have around te house where I "think" to hard about it and what ppl must think.

Nope it's now about what flows best for our family.

I am still not used to me being back to work after 5 years of being a stay at home mom it'a hard thing to work out and I am constantly reminding myself of all this! Give myself a break get that pressure off and things will work themselves out as they come.

Not sure you can imagine what a relief it has been that just recently that my shoulders are feeling a bit lighter and that I no longer feel like the walls are gonna cave in.