feb 16,2010

He holds my hand
He's the keep of my heart
He walks beside me
He loves me
How could I ever tell him
I feel so miss understood
So crazy
Lonely
How could he understand the way things work
In my head
The voices
Wont it scare him away
He has seen every curve every dimple
Every freckle
Why is this so hard to expose
Fighting the waves that crash against the shore
My feet being sucked in under the sand
Some thing wants to take me away
How could I think so little of myself
How could I think his love for me only goes so deep
How could I think I didn't matter so much
I'm sick
Disturbed
Could anyone understand
The little monster hiding in my pocket
Under my bed
The little guy is every where
He acts as my subconscious
Wait it can't be
He's not in my head and under the rug at the same time
Ah man
Who could possibly understand this side of me

I did it he was so understanding
he sat there
Love in his eyes and warm arms waiting
Understanding and comfort
Not what I was expecting
I reached out and he held on
Tears of relief of joy of grieving