Friday, October 22, 2010

july 1,2010

disconnected and abused
her body is covered in blood
bruised and beaten
a single tear dry on her cheek

her world
so separated
scattered peaces

she rolls in the darkness
sadness guilt and anger

the pain I don't' not wish to feel is eating away at me
I am not sure where to turn
please help me I am drowning
today is not for me

I wish to see the sunshine again
for this pain is a slow torcher

breathing is tight
tears wont stop flowing
help me
my world is in crumbles
or so it feels that way
just for today

Happy thoughts.........


smiles moon light
and dancing in the rain
children's laughter
lighting bugs and crickets singing

I don not wish to drowned today
the world will not end
I will not die
this night mare will end


the way he smiles at me
I feel so safe
so warm
so complete
he is mine

OK thats about it I had to feel things and just let them out. I had a rough day yesterday and it bled into today. I feel not myself wounded and afraid. There is just so much going on emotionally it hit me like a ton of bricks! I fucking hate that!

But tomorrow is another day and I will keep on truckin and I will let feelings be felt. I just need a hug

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