Definetly life changing

It is happening again, my life is transforming and molding to a better me. Trying to explain and get others to understand this process is so hard. If they don't know what it is like making these changes than they will have a hard time trying to make sense of all this.

I told my husband about how I decide to stop wearing my pedometer for a while. I didn't say I was throwing it away or getting rid of it. I simply said I was giving it a break.

It brought back memories to when I told him I was sending our scale to live with his parents. I would have just trashed it but to make him feel better knowing it is there and can grab it when ever than we settled on the middle ground.

Now the pedometer is not a threat to most I have just been feeling that same "guilt" feeling. I have been paying too much attention to the numbers and not how my body feels. There isn't anything wrong with a pedometer, it was great for me it got me motivated and was a daily reminder to keep me moving.

I don't know maybe I am just seeing how I can do with out my training wheels on. Like the the scale it was great seeing the numbers go down and got me motivated, well it got to a point where the numbers stood still or only budged every 2 weeks causing me to check almost daily.

I don't need those distractions. I guess I am just finding out that my internal signals are gathering more strength and now I need to prove to myself that I can do it with out see any numbers. I need to set goals ones that I know will get me the 10K steps a day and not caring if I know exactly what number I did hit.

I have been seeing my daily routin and if I stick to it or even if I add more I will hit the 10K and mayeb more.

Getting this new found strength from with in is giving me more motivation and today being day one with no pedometer and allowing myself to be set free of the training wheels I feel great! I had so much more energy and my thoughts were much more positive.

I don't know if the pedometer was the cause of the "guilt" feel but I do know that I have been relying on it in the wrong ways.

Kinda like the clock, when I first started and as some one else mentioned at the McKenna site. When you feel hunger first response to that feeling look at the clock. Old habits is it time to eat? does the clock know if your hungry? NO

Same for me with the pedometer, just because I get x amount of steps doesn't mean I wasn't doing something more. There is plenty more exercise than your feet moving.

So now for me my goal is to keep moving! I basically know what can get me 10K a day and will keep with it and I have a strong feeling I will end up maybe going over. Who cares I am not in training and what is most important is that I am moving my body.

Jamie